T.TEAL
April 2011
March 2011
Why
Can I not see my self as something good on this planet? I had this idea once that people around me would somehow remember me in conversation. When really im forgotten. It will not change with time.
“Not sleeping”
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I do not
Feel good. I feel like everything I love I break. Not just crack but 100% crush! henry im sorry im not god enough to be your girlfriend anyway okay? i am falling apart. i hate to be alone but i cant be close to someone. i am full of poison and my mind hurts. i need some real sleep.
“Who are you to tell me that I need to suck it up?”
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“It is not getting better but I can pretend if you want.”
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Its really a not fun thing.
To get ready for school in the morning and think you look nice to walk inside and feel like you were sooooooo wrong and why do you even try. So tell you what I am not going to try anymore. Theres no one that will notice anyway. I can just be a wall flower. I like how that sounds. They dont care not they will not mind when I am quiet.
Loveless
