i never move very often and we just moved into a new house, its weird.i live in boxes. All of my things are all over the place i found my clean clotheson the dinnner table this morning.This process of moving has made me want to move out more than ever. I havent reallythought about that yet before this. I want to be on my own,i am 17 almost 18 and thetime has to come sooner or later when i will needto leave. iwanna tape up those boxes again and do it for me.
It comes in waves. For me giant right now. I am starting feel like I am getting what I deserve. :( the inpact that hit me today can never be washed away. I will always have a burning image in my head that brings me to tears. My life has changed and now all I feel is sad, and sooooooo fucking sorry. :( I wish I never had to go in there ever again but im not so lucky